December 2009
11 posts
Tonight I have realized alot. I’ve discovered the dangers and the evil things around me. I need strength and direction oh God. Are the friends I have here really my friends? Is it time or even a good decision to move back to Oregon?? Something keeps itching at me that it’s time. Has Eric made up his mind about his Faith, for now at least? Lord, i just wanna be where I’m happy and...
From the phone...again...
Oh, and another thing….Eric, shut the fuck up. I sooooo wish that you wouldn’t share my business with anyone else. I trust(ed) you enough to even tell you some of my deepest darkest secrets. And now idk anymore. How did Nicole find out that I want to leave too?? Hmm..?? I didn’t tell her, and Mom didn’t tell her. It’s certainly because of you why she hates me. You...
From the phone...
Tonight was close to the definition of hell. My sister crying. My Mom crying, I’m crying. It was terrible. Everything that had ever bothered Mom, Nicole or I came out tonight. I was unexpected. well needed and totally not finished. All over because “people dont clean their own dishes and I always have to do it.” Um, Mother, I DO clean my used dishes. You just fail to notice. And...
I have a bad habit of talking to myself when I’m tired. =/ XD
I remember when I went to see Versaemerge in Palm Springs….March 24, 2009…..at 6:30pm…….lol! A very good night. :)
My friend's going to Baghdad.
I nearly had a panic attack last night when he posted “I’m going to Baghdad.” last night on Facebook. First panic attack I’ve almost had, actually. Not fun. Anyways, his name is Bryce and he’s a friend of mine from Oregon. Thankfully he’s not in the service/army or nothing. He told me he was gonna be doing some CAD work. (Computer Automated Drafting) He’s...
GAHAHAHAHajdgfhkoiawe;IVDFwd!~!!!!!!
Idk what I should be feeling right now. I’m sick, for one. I thought my friend came over just to chill, but he went with my sister on her driver’s test instead.
THANKS FOR FUCKING TELLING ME FUCKING LIAR! We’ve talked about this before about how he doesn’t have to lie to me cuz it’s fucking POINTLESS. And what does he go do..??? X(
I just dont know. All he had to...
The text conversation:
Me: you guys still driving? Eric: Yep. We’re in rancho mirage lol why? Me: omg! I was just wondering, geez. lol I didn’t know it was gonna take this long. Eric: yea the lessons are really long. Lol Me: but why didn’t you tell me you were going? :( Eric: Idk i sorry. I just didn’t think about it lol Me: I asked you why you were here, lol.
LIES!!!! Guh, who knows anymore.
I'm letting this anger take over me because....
I dont wanna hold it in.
I.AM.SO.ANGRY.RIGHT.NOW.
Here’s what I poisted on twitter.com: “ok, I’m angry; I’m sick, I’m hungry, nothing for me to eat in this flippin house, the boiling pot is GONE, and I’ve been lied to. How r u??”
Being sick and angry dont mix. And someone freaking spilt something that’s sticky on the keyboard, and it’s kinda...
From the phone...
Ok, so I’m lying on my bed listening to Relient K and reading the driver’s manual. Why is it that I all of a sudden feel alone. Like I’m the only one who feels this certain way. Like I’m the only one of my species. I’m actually really confused about that because we’re all the same. No one is bigger or better than the other. The only ones who think that way are...